Horrible Sadness... Broken hearted still...

I should be keeping busy. Instead I feel apathetic. Like I've imprisioned tears all day. At night as I sit here alone thinking of how she broke my heart and destroyed my plans I just think of the deep love that I felt for her that is now split in two like a fault line after an earthquake. It was Earth shattering to find out how she had been lieing to me and cheating on me with another guy while I was away for just a few months. She was trying to love two guys at the same time. Lieing to everyone around her, at 17, she didn't feel like anything was wrong with what she was doing. That is until I found out about her dishonesty and so did the other guy and the other guy dumped her on her arse. He didn't love her anyways, but I have to sit here - broken hearted.